Sunday, April 26, 2020

Films that made an impact on who I am

I recently rewatched these great movies, Anbe Sivam and Kannathil Muthamittal.

I watched these movies when I was in the 9th standard if my memory serves me right. That was when I begged my mother to buy me a CD player. I went to the bazaar in Madurai to get a DVD player and found these speakers there. I bought them along and faced my mother's wrath later.

The speakers were from Philips and they costed more than the CD player. The CD player had colorful lights at the front and it had an internal amplifier and I directly connected the speaker cables to the CD player. I had a small tape recorder before this and compared to that the digital sound from this audio system was at another level for me.

Coming back to the movies, I read about these movies in a QA section published in Vikatan. Probably from Sujatha. I used to make a note of these names on a piece of paper and decided to get those CDs when I had a chance. I had other names like Troy, Ayudha Ezhuthu on the list as well.

When we visited Madurai the next time, I bought these CD's from Meenakshi bazaar and they were difficult to find. Inevitably, not many people were interested in those movies at that time.

The experience that I had while watching these movies was mixed. I was taken aback by the background music in Kannathil Muthamittal movie. Honestly, I didn't fully understand both of those movies at that time. But, because of the lack of other options, I rewatched those movies several times.

Thinking about that now, I believe that those movies played a major role in shaping my character, especially during my teenage. I was trying to act like a grown-up, like every other teenager, and this Maadhavan character had an impact on me.

Anbe Sivam was difficult for me to understand. I didn't understand anything about the conversation Kamal and Madhavan had about corporate companies and communism before boarding the train. Naturally, I didn't understand the "two to two to two two" joke as well. I was a Tamil medium student.

These two movies taught me how to overcome the quintessential hardships of life - death and betrayal. They made me secular.

Essentially they taught me that love is god, literally. (அன்பே சிவம்)